I don't write the stuff that people want to read - even in the fandoms where lots of people play. I have a small number of dedicated followers, but my fic clearly lacks broader appeal. I mean, I can write Clintasha fics that everyone clicks on, but nobody kudoses. (Incidentally, you're only "worthwhile" to most Clintasha readers if you regularly write Clintasha, otherwise you're not worth reading/praising.)
I don't do slash. Mostly because I have no great desire for all the white dick fencing ever, and I don't have psychological issues with seeing myself and my favourites as female: mostly because I've been lucky to have most of the good and very limited of the bad. So I don't need to 'escape' to being male to be worthy: I AM WORTHY AS I AM. And neither you, nor they, nor anyone else on this earth needs to approve that.
It frustrates me a lot, though. I've found a few individuals with whom I click, but largely...nope. People aren't interested in me, in my life, in the things which I'm interested in. This is true in fandom as well as RL - and always has been true, for as far back as I've been in fandom.
I don't know what to do about it. If I should bother to do anything about it.
